Social Media Struggles

Whenever exciting things happen in my life, I am so hesitant to share it on social media even though I know there are people who would be genuinely happy for me and that want to know about said exciting things. It just inevitably feels like bragging – Like all I’m really doing is adding to the perpetual highlight reel while never sharing the bleak and boring moments. So I usually opt for sharing nothing and avoid the internal distress.

However, I had quite a lot of people ask me to post pictures from my recent trip to Ireland, so I figured I would.. only to be unsure of it the moment I started considering which pictures to choose. I immediately felt like I was curating the entire experience for the viewing pleasure of others and then it doesn’t even feel meaningful or real anymore. I just hate it. I hate the thought I give it; How much time it takes from my real, actual life. It feels dumb, and I feel dumb consequently. I start thinking I am the only one that goes through this and I am just silly because it’s not that big of a deal and everyone else seems to be able to use social media without issue. I mean hell, I used to be able to use social media without issue.

So what happened?

I care so much. Too much. Always have. I feel ashamed of that, and I think that’s the root of my struggle. I care about what I’m posting, and I want others to care too. I care so much that I take time and energy to express it just right, but at the same time I worry that it will be obvious I care too much. And that makes me weak.

Admitting all of this makes me feel weak.

Even going through so much just to write about my dumb experience of posting some stupid pictures seems so incredibly trite.

What’s wrong with me?



A longgg time ago (like.. 8 years ago O_O) I purchased the book It Starts With Food. I got all excited about it and knew I wanted to try the Whole30 but never did.

Welp, now I’m almost 28, and 20 pounds heavier. And no, that’s not 20lbs of muscle.

I’m just not happy with my body. I have a little bit of a gut. It sticks out over the edge of my jeans when I sit down… It’s.. just not cool. This is not how I want to feel about myself.

No matter how much sleep I get I still wake up feeling exhausted.

I have on-again-off-again bouts of acid reflux.

I eat fast-food pretty much all the time.

And what’s so frustrating is that I KNOW better. I am well-educated on what needs to happen, I just have the hardest time actually making the changes. I don’t really know how to cook so that’s a big part of it too.. It just all seems so overwhelming. So I avoid avoid avoid.

8 years later though and I’m finally going to take a stab at it by way of freezer/slow-cooker meals. Seems to be about as simple as cooking can get.

I CAN DO THIS. *cue Xena battle cry*

Flo Living Updates (Based on feedback I’ve received)

Alrighty, so it’s been some time since the last post. I actually received a number of responses, mostly from women like me who are curious about Alisa’s programs and wanted to know if I had discovered any news.

So here’s the update:

Of the women who have contacted me since putting up that blog post, only one of them had purchased the monthly protocol. She expressed that it was basically just Alisa’s book in video and worksheet form. For her, it was more confusing. After she read the book she felt empowered, but after working through the “Monthly Flo Program” she just felt overwhelmed. I cannot speak on the “Sexy Flo” and “Fertile Flo” programs. Perhaps since they are so much more expensive, they will be more organized and less confusing..? I would sure hope so, anyway. If I hear anything I will update.

In short, it doesn’t seem to be worth it unfortunately :/ I suggest maybe purchasing the book since that is a good source of information, despite being a bit fluffy in self-promotion. I recently purchased the app as well. I believe it is also a good tool for keeping track of the cycle phases. It makes suggestions for food, exercise, and other life things based on which phase you’re in.

I do believe that Alisa is onto some truth and does genuinely care about helping all of us women live our best lives, but I also feel that she is trying too hard to make money off of this truth. But hey, what do I know? I’ve never had a business. I’m not trying to suggest any type of treachery to her intent. All I can do is all I know how to do: Do my own research and take care of myself as best as possible – and that includes discernment in how to spend my hard-earned money.

I hope this helps anyone who is still searching for answers!

Flo Living Protocol: Is it a Scam?

I am so torn.

I have spent hours literally scouring the Internet, trying to find evidence of ANYONE who has completed the protocol through Alisa Vitti’s website.

The result? Nothing. Nothing at all.

Supposedly thousands of women have completed it and are success stories, and yet I can’t even find a YouTube video of anyone describing their journey while on it. Considering how you can find a review of the $5 toothpaste you buy, it seems unrealistic that not a single person of the thousands would document their own journey.

I personally believe in what Alisa is preaching, which is why I am so interested in the protocol. But I am a full-time, budget-conscious college student who is completely supporting myself, so $300 is not chump change to me in the slightest. That is half of my rent. One to two textbooks. Food for a month and a half. You get the picture.

My thing is, I am a skeptic by nature. I read reviews of anything I possibly can before buying it. But once I see solid and consistent evidence, then I am golden. The fact that I can’t find any of that in regards to the protocol truly worries me. It’s not that I don’t think her methods work; what I am concerned about is the program’s worth. Are the services offered actually worth the price tag, or is it something I could essentially navigate on my own, with a few worksheets thrown in the mix.

Reviews on her book Woman Code are the closest thing I have found, but even then only one person said she had done the protocol and gave no details. Honestly, that could have been written by someone who works for Alisa. If I hadn’t seen evidence of that on the internet time and time again I wouldn’t assume that, but I’ve been burned.

Back to the book: the #1 complaint is that a lot of the book is fluff and self-promotion. And what is she promoting? The protocol and her services/guides/etc. that are offered through the website. This takes me back to my need for real, human evidence.

I’ve discussed this endlessly with my boyfriend, exhausting all possibilities and truly attempting to give her the benefit of the doubt. The website has only been around for less than 7 years. Maybe she’s only just now getting traction and reaching more people. Like any business, the goal is to make money and I completely get that. But why is she pushing, pushing, pushing and all the while saying it’s worked for so many others, yet not a soul has peeped about it on the Internet. And trust me.. I have searched high and low, with a variety of different combinations and search tactics.

I just want proof. If it’s that wonderful and effective of a program, I can’t believe no one would write about it.

So here I am. No one may read it, and that’s fine. I’m going to use this blog as a way to document my nutritional journey regardless. But if anyone has any answers, please feel free to comment or contact me. My email is

::EDIT 6/4/18::

Here is a link to a more recent post describing some of the feedback I’ve received from some very lovely and helpful ladies!